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Everybody knows the feeling of pressure. Whether it is from school, work or life in general pressure can feel like an anvil on one’s shoulders.
Sometimes the pressure can build up to a point where it can affect a person sense of right and wrong. This can especially happen to people of a young age that maybe feel extreme pressure from school, family
or social links on a daily basis. This is exactly what happens to the main character Hailey in the short story “She’s the bomb” by T. Coraghessan Boyle from 2017.
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With the messages between Hailey and her friend, it is clear, how afraid Hailey really is of being exposed as a fraud. She is feeling like her whole world is about to crumble
and it is easy to see that she is frustrated because she writes things like “I’d rather die” and “Srsly i never thought i’d wish for a school shooting”.
Both these quotes express the extreme amount of anxiety, that Hailey is feeling, and it is clear how much of a failure she feels like.
Besides this, the messages also express extremely clear the amount of desperation Hailey feels, she even says it herself “I’m desprt”.
This is because for Hailey it is just about keeping a secret, it is about maintaining her respect, her credibility and not becoming an embarrassment.
Hailey does not wont the whole world to see her, in the way she sees herself, like a failure. Hailey made a mistake by not telling her mother at the first chance.
She just kept postponing the inevitable. And by doing this Hailey put an insane amount of pressure on her shoulders, a pressure no person of that age should feel.
She could not finish college, and she could not be honest about her dropping out. So, it is no wonder Hailey sees herself as a failure, but this is not the only consequences Hailey experiences, because with the feeling of being a failure, Hailey also begins to experience low-self-esteem and does not think anything of herself.
This is expressed in another conversation with her friend over text. Guess who i saw in the store like ten minutes ago?/ Who? / Stephanie joiner/ Who’s that?/ Like really i might as well have a letter A stitched on my sweater/ What r u talking about?/ Or a B, maybe a B/ ??? who’s stephanie?/ I don’t know just some girl/ So who is she?/ Actually?/ Yeah/ She’s nobody/ So why mention her?/ I dont know maybe b/c i’m nobody too/ Dont say that/ I’m saying it(P. 5 L. 160-176).
The conversation between Hailey and her friend explains broadly, how Hailey has begun to experience low selfesteem and has gotten a bad view of herself.
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